Insight

I'm back. Back from my Insight Yoga experience in Singapore, with a bit of a bump, it has to be said.

It's often a struggle returning to "normal" life...whatever that looks like at the time...after some sort of yoga training or retreat. Even just being away, in a room with like-minded people, for just 5 days can have a profound effect. I left Singapore on a bit of a fluffy white cloud...not under it you understand, on top of it...as if floating on air! I felt light, renewed and refreshed and ready for anything. Well, almost. I coped well with the late night flight home and finally got through the door just past midnight. I couldn't sleep though. Not sure if that was due to the fact I still felt as if I was in the air, literally, or if my head was just full of thoughts...probably a combination of both things.

Laundry and other necessary but menial tasks filled my first day home so I didn't have a chance to really notice how I was feeling, but today, Day 2 of being Home has been hard work. Here I am back with my thoughts and uncertainties...wonderings...ponderings...as if the last week never happened, and yet it did. Not only that, but the nature of the training provided me with some new and wonderful tools to cope with such situations and yet I find myself avoiding them, almost as if I'm not entirely sure how to use them...and yet, there is no wrong way.

The Return of the Constant Drilling didn't help persuade me to get on my Mat today (my yoga mat, that is, just in case you're wondering). It seems they have started refurbishing some apartments in our block, both below and above us, and the noise is painful. When that noise periodically subsides, for an all too brief moment - maybe just for a lunch break, between the hours of 8am and 6pm, we are just left with the ongoing pile-driving down on ground level. Today was tough and quite frankly, I wanted to be back Home at Shoreline Drive where it is forever peaceful. Dear Ottawa, how I miss you, especially on days like today!

That all said, I know tomorrow, or maybe the next day, will be different. The only constant in this world is Change. All feelings and sensations eventually pass. On another day, Insight and the Power of Yoga will conquer the Drilling and any other distracting noises in my mind and I will be able to get back on my cloud, but today...it wasn't to be. Integration of any sort takes time, after all.